Well…we’re in an odd spot now, aren’t we? There was finally a bit of a reckoning in the streaming world the other day. Several streamers are now banned from Twitch. I tried to tell people that some of these guys were no good, but no one listened.

And now Mixer is shutting down on top of that. I had actually considered trying to start streaming again on my old account, but apparently most Mixer streamers are heading to/back to Twitch.

There’s an article on Kotaku that’s mostly “Wah wah my stream.” I want to tell them all to fuck off and they should be thankful that they were successful at all. As you know, I very much was not. Not even kinda. Not even vaguely in the area. Hell, I lost money on the whole thing.

I mean…streaming was basically my dream job when I was a kid. Play games for a living? Hell yeah! But then, when the technology allowed it, no one cared about little ol’ me. Not surprising, really, when even my family didn’t care about me at all.

So, where do I go from here? I’m not sure. I’m still thinking about doing some stuff on YouTube, but I don’t know if I want to put all that effort in again just for no one to watch. I guess I will think on it more.

For now…I need to go hide or something.


Consider Me Unsurprised

So, I found out that I got lied to yet again. I’m not sure why this keeps happening. If you’re not going to do whatever, or don’t want to, just fucking say so. If you have no intention of doing what you offer, just keep your fucking mouth shut. This isn’t that hard, really.

But no, apparently it’s better to say you will and then just not? Honestly, I wasn’t really expecting anything, but still. If there’s one theme that’s followed me through my life it’s definitely broken promises. It seems like they’re everywhere, all the time, and the one who suffers for it is me, of course. I’m kinda tired of it.

In other news, I think I have narrowed down what I might stream first. I’m thinking maybe Fallout 4 or Minecraft, though that might be Bedrock instead of Java, which I don’t have much experience with. I also thought about getting a new Epic Games account and going with Dauntless, though I’m not super good at that. I may check out a couple other games and see if they would work. And I realized that probably all my games on GoG would probably be fine.


Good And Bad News

So, I got a new med last week, and it was all sunshine at first. I think I mentioned that previously. But now, a week later, I think it’s already starting to be ineffective. I’ll probably have to call in yet again and have them up it. It won’t be long until I’m back in the same position again. I can’t wait.

I know I haven’t streamed yet, but I didn’t think about the fact that I would need a second account for some things. Well, I thought about it, but thought I could work around it for a few things. I was wrong. Blah. I know it’s not the worst thing in the world, but for a few things, I don’t have the money for that.

I do still have a few ideas though. Maybe I will get something running this week, even. We will see. They’re only ideas at the moment.

I’m trying not to let some things get to me like they have been recently, but I’m not having a ton of luck. Still pretty lonely, but I should be used to that by now. Also, my body, like all over, hasn’t felt great the past few days. I’m not sure what’s up with that. I don’t feel sick, just…like sore and off a little bit. It’s hard to explain but that’s close.

I think I’m going to go and test one of my ideas. Maybe I’ll get lucky for a change.